As a new Mom, I hardly have “me” time. I find myself reading my fashion magazines in the middle of the night while pumping for my lazy nurser, knitting at stop lights while searching for the paci to calm my lil mister, and just trying to get it all done. Then by the time I pour myself into my bed I look longingly at the books that once were what I fell asleep to and realize I have little or no energy to pick one up.
It’s interesting! Lots of ladies told me “It’s so easy to lose yourself. It becomes all about your baby and while that’s not a bad thing, it’s makes little time to keep up with you.” The whole time I was prego I’d smirk in my sweet maxi dress and new fashion now sandals and say “Not me. I can have a baby and keep myself too, just watch.” But now I ask…where did I go?
What these ladies failed to mention is that it’s not just all about your sweet addition; you also have to find a way to split your attention between your baby and your hubby among all the other daily demands of work, family and a social life. These sweet experienced chicas not only forgot to mention this, they didn’t mention how difficult it would be just to get out of bed in the morning after the middle of the night feedings and diaper changes that have left me wondering if I could just keep my eyes open to change a diaper. What about all the necessary baby things just to be able leave the house…why…no how!? How are you to have time to get you ready as well!?
Recently though, I made a deal with myself because “these ladies’” words started to ring in my head every time I caught a glance of myself in the mirror, and I hardly recognized the once fabulously put together girl, on the way out the door. I had promised myself that “loosing me” would not be an option, yet my heels continued to collect dust and my books lay unopened. What to do?!
Uninterrupted sleep just doesn’t happen with a new baby. Motivation isn’t always there! Those extra twenty pounds over your ideal weight, and the confidence you once exuded seems like a thing of the past.
So lose yourself or not to lose yourself?! That is the question!
